I’ve been away for the weekend.
I found out my nan has got cancer. It looks bad.
It’s made me think about my life. I was ill during the weekend because i couldn’t eat her anniversary meal properly, i forced it down to be polite and ended up being sick the whole time i was there - i had almost ripped my stomach.
I was in pain the whole time from tooth ache… it turns out at 16 i have to have root canal because of my purging habits. A tooth that was perfectly healthy a year ago… wtf?
This is from 6months of having an ED.
I put on weight that i lost from a fast a couple of days previously.
FUCK THIS.
I’ve already tried and failed to recover. But i’m going to try again. Three small meals a day, i’ll start at 500 calories a day.
I will work my hardest to lose weight, i’m not going to damage myself any more. I want to be thinner… but also happy and healthy.
I will exercise to lose weight, while eating a good diet. I’m thankful to my ed for giving me the ability to say no to bad foods, now i’m going to take that with me and get better.
To everyone else struggling to recover. Good luck! Think of the thick lovely hair you’ll have, the nice skin, long healthy nails. Thin, but radiant!
Pro-health, here i come! <3
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Do you think i could get away with fasting over the weekend if i have three shows (two on Saturday and one on Sunday)?
I MUST lose weight for next weekend.
